Blind Are you ready? This place inside my mind, a place I like to hide. You don't know the chances. What if I should die? A place inside my brain, another kind of pain. You don't know the chances. I'm so blind! Another means I find, to escape the pain inside. You don't know the chances. What if I should die? A place inside my brain, another kind of pain. You don't know the chances. I'm so blind! Deeper and deeper and deeper, as I journey to Live a life that seems to be, a lost reality That I can never find a way to reach. My inner self-esteem is low. How deep can I go in the ground that I lay, If I don't find a way to see through the gray that clouds my mind. It's time I looked to see what's between the lines. I can see, I can see, I'm going blind... I'm blind!... Ball Tongue There you are alone, With no hope of ever having, something to be proud of Something earned without begging. Yes, I know you're a person, a person close to me. Who do you think you are? What more do you want from me? Ball Tongue!... Why are you at home, buried in your own self pity? Why do you insist on ripping the life clean out of me? Yes, I know you're the person, the person that took time with me. Does it give you the right to expect your life to revolve around me? Ball Tongue!... You were my brother. Where does our friendship end? I'm not going to give in. How can you fuckin doubt me, but not again. Ball Tongue!... You are such a fucking whore... Ball Tongue!... Need To I, I am confused, fighting myself, Wanting to give in, needing your help. Skin cold with fear, feeling weird with touch, Outside I don't know you, but inside I'm fucked.. Can you see it in me? Skin cold from touch. Each day confronted with what I have done. You pull me closer, I push you away. You tell me it's okay, I can't help but feel the pain. I hate you! Why are you taken? I love you! I feel so helpless. Why is it you? Ripping my insides each time I lay with you. Why do I cry? Why do I really need to? Why!!! Why!!! Why!!! Why!!! Fuck you, bitch! Need to ... fuck ... Slut! Clown You piece of shit! Anger inside builds within, ugly. Why'd you hit me? What have I done? You tried to hit me. Scream at me again, if you like. Throw your hate at me, with all your might. Hit me cause I'm strange, hit me. Tell me I'm a pussy and you're harder than me. What's with you boy? Think hard. A tattooed body to hide who you are. Scared to be honest, be yourself. A cowardly man! I don't run around, trying to be what's not within me. Look into my eyes, I am free. You're just a wanna-be! To come out. Hit me clown because I'm not from your town, no, hit me clown. Clown you ain't shit, turn around, get your face split. You're just too fucking little! I'm just a fucking mental! Divine I hide, only to defy you. Take away the only love inside you. I see your face through everyone. Inside I've just begun! You think I'm out to scare you. I'm only out to prepare you, for when you stop and turn around. Your body's going down! You're gonna waste your time, Your life will soon be mine. You're definitely one of a kind, and You're suffering 'cause of me is divine. Tell me why you never liked me. Tell me once how she fired me. Pulled out, I wait for the perfect time, to take what's rightfully mine. You paid the dumb one to fire me. You said you don't want to fire me. You and your dumb one, anyone. Oh well. Yeah well, Fuck you. I'm fed up with you. I'm not as good as you? Fuck no, I'm better than you!!! Did you really think you'd beat me at my own game? You tried to see what you got. Me ripping at your brain! Faget HIV Feel I am different in this normal world. Why did you tease me? Made me feel upset. Fucking stereotypes feeding their heads. I am ugly. Please just go away. HIV I can see inside you fine. This blessing in disguise. HIV Why do you treat me this way? Made the hate stay. As I grow up, I can never seem to escape, All the laughing, all the pain. If you were me, what would you do? Nothing, probably. You'd just throw me away. Faget! Pussy! I'm just a pretty boy, whatever you call it. You wouldn't know a real man if you saw it. It keeps going on day after day, son. You faget get off me don't want none. I'm sick and tired of people treating me this way everyday. Who gives a fuck right? Now I got something to say to all the people that think I'm strange, and I should be out of here locked up in a cage. You don't know what the hell is up now anyway. You got this pretty-boy feeling Like I'm enslaved, to a world that never Appreciated shit: You can suck my dick and fucking like it!!!!!!!!!! He had my gun but he had to find the money anyway... He had my gun but he had to find the money, going insane... He had my gun but he had to find the money, going away... I'm just a pretty boy, I'm not supposed to fuck a girl. I'm just a pretty boy, living in this fucked up world. All my life, who am I? I'm just a faget! Faget! I'm a faget! Faget! I'm not a faget! What am I? Faget! You mother fucking queers! Shoots and Ladders Ring around the rosies, Pocket full of posies, Ashes, ashes, we all fall down. Nursery rhymes are said, verses in my head, Into my childhood, they're spoonfed. Hidden violence revealed, darkness that seems real. Look at the pages that cause all this evil. One, two, buckle my shoe. Three, four, shut the door. Five, six, pick up sticks. Seven, eight, lay them straight. London bridge is falling down, falling down, falling down. London bridge is falling down, my fair lady. Nick nack patty wack, give a dog a bone. This old man came rolling home. ... this old man came, Mary had a little lamb who's fleece was white as snow. Mary had a little lamb who's fleece was white as snow. Baa baa black sheep have you any wool? Mary had a little lamb who's fleece was white as snow. Yes sir, yes sir, three bags full. Mary had a little lamb who's fleece was white as snow. Baa baa black sheep have you any wool? Mary had a little lamb. Yes sir, yes sir, three bags full (white trash coon). Predictable Go! I can, in every way, Mistake the pain I feel inside. It comes to me, Evil thoughts is creeping through my mind. Who are you to say, that I can't speak what's on my mind? It runs away, It's so predictable. I can, in every way, feel the stress that tangles up inside. Too blind to see, emptiness and sorrow of their lives. You run away to the cover of their pointless ties. You ask me. It's so predictable. I'm gonna try. I'm gonna die. I'm gonna try. Another day, Silence overwhelms my mind. Who is to say, If I have the time? oh why, Should I pray, For all the hate to go away? Another day, I can never break free. You wait for me, I call out to you. Another day, I'll live forever. Fuck...should I? Try... Fake I can't stand the sight of you. I can't stand what you put me through. Your life's a lie, that you hide. Is it that terrible being you inside? I can't stand, oh, the thought of you. I can't stand all the things you do. What do you try to justify? You were just too scared to be you inside. Let it all out... Let it all go... I look at you, all I see, is a man too afraid to really be... I can't stand what you put me through. I can't stand even the thought of you. Your secret lies that you hide. Is it that terrible being you inside? You try so hard to be wanted. False emotions tells you fronted. I think being a person relies on one thing: Be yourself, let you come through. You're too afraid to really be, Someone who isn't false, who doesn't care to be. Be yourself, let you come through! Fake! You'll regret it, you'll regret it... Lies I like to search inside, For all of the things that you will hide. What's the problem? Can't you seem to, Search through these problems that haunt and taunt you. I smile, while you're afraid. You run, while you're so pained. Do you ever see it out from aside your fears? Thinking about your life. Thinking about your inner fears. I would like to search inside, For all of the things that you will hide. What's the problem? Can't you seem to open your body, and let me touch you. I want you to see, your life without disguise. The world of things that hurt you, Dump all these useless lies, I want you to feel, feel you worn up inside. Once I took you in, I'll throw you out next time! I tried, you win. My life, is ripping your heart out and destroying my pain! Go! Helmet in the Bush I keep asking, what's your lie? It is disturbing. This isn't mine. (Why) Days keep passing, I'd like to check the time. (Me?) I don't feel right, Please God let me sleep tonight. Everyday confronted...sick of friends giving in! I just wanna know why! Want to give it up But I can't escape I keep asking, You again, please try, It is haunting, This takes my mind. (Why) Days keep passing, Line after line. (Me?) I don't feel right, Please God don't let me die tonight, Die tonight, die tonight, die tonight. Please God help me, Please God free me, Please God help me from my painful situation. Please God save me from my painful situation. Please God don't let me slip in tonight, please God Oh, please God don't let me give in tonight, please God Oh, please God don't let me slip in tonight, don't let me die. Please God don't let me give in tonight, don't let me die. Daddy Mother please forgive me. I just had to get out all my pain and suffering. Now that I am done, remember I will always love you. I'm your son! Little child, looking so pretty. Come out and play, I'll be your daddy. Innocent child, looking so sweet. A rape in my eyes, and on your flesh I'll eat. You've raped, I feel dirty. It hurt, As a child. Tied down, That's a good boy. And fucked, Your own child. I scream, No one hears me. It hurt, I'm not alive. My God. Saw you watching. Mommy why?! Your own child. It's alright. I didn't touch you there. Mama said she didn't care. I didn't touch you there. That's why mama stopped and stared. I fucking hate you! Mother fucker! Mother Fucker! I fucking hate you! Fuck You! You son of a bitch, you fucking ruined my life! I wanted to die! I'm sick of it, mother fucker...oh... Why'd you fuckin do it to me? I Hate You! I Fuckin Hate You! I Hate You! Piece of shit! Why? I Hate You!